Why do I try to fit
Into the box? Can I take another hit? Or should I break the locks? What’s keeping me here? Can’t they see I’ve tried? Did I waste another year? They say the sea is wide. Is it them or is it me? Shame, doubt, fear… The fog doesn’t let me see. Which way should I steer? Anything can happen, But the world shatters. The future is open, But am I doing what matters? Remain calm, patient, wait, All easier said than done. Don’t want to find too late I’ve been burnt by the sun. How can I share what I know, If I hide and live in fear? Where can I go? What do I truly hold dear? Worried and afraid, Many a time I’ve cried. Yet the way He’s made Shows He’s by my side. Stop running the race, Take a breath. Jog at a different pace, Is it really life or death? Trust, even if it’s hard to do. No matter distance, time, or length, Only One to turn to… The Lord is my strength. Dark clouds abound,
More tears fall. Unheard, do you make a sound? Who can you call? Pain and strains, I see you, that was me. Bound in chains, I’ve been set free. What can I say To those without Any hope today, So full of doubt? The joy and light Of life remains hidden. Who’s willing to bite, Take that faith leap unbidden? Such peace and love Awaits the broken hearted. Embraced from above, Didn’t know when I started. Feeling alone? Like no one cares? The true you unknown? Heavy weight your soul bares? Though some try to help, That ache and emptiness Returns when they leave. Solitude, unwanted, loneliness. Well, no more! Darkness was lifted. God opened a door, Perspective shifted. No longer feel That I am alone. God is real, I’m not on my own. Get behind me Satan! I won’t listen anymore. Jesus is enough, More than I could ask for. The future is unwritten, But I have a hope. The serpent has bitten, But His heel crushes. Nothing greater to gain, Walk another mile. In the middle of the rain, Still have reason to smile. A flower wilts,
The clouds roll in, Darkness prevails, Can’t seem to win. Thought things were good, Till life decided no. Time for storms to kick in, Tomorrow’s no rainbow. But I won’t despair When God is with me. Life can be unfair, But He won’t forsake thee. My trust is in Him, Who works all for good To them that love Him, Do as He would. No matter the outcome, What do I love more? There’s no treasure above, The God I live for. In the ark, Noah trusted That he would see land. While we can’t see ahead, God’s promises stand. My heart doesn’t listen
To my head. Just doesn’t know when It’s being misled. The sun’ll come out Tomorrow. Why sit here and pout In sorrow? Do you ever quit? Why must I feel? Just leave me alone. What is your deal? It’s not rational, Just wants to cry. Claims it’s not optional, But I want to know why. You’re being a pain, Truly ridiculous. Just insane, Purely capriciousness. What could’ve been, Or you could’ve had… It could be worse, Things aren’t that bad. You claim to have God… Yes, that is true. But I’m not a stone rod, I’m human too. God, remind me When I forget What I’m to be And am not yet. Thank You for the times
You said no and the things You never gave me, For the blessings ‘no’ brings. I’ve learned to trust You When I don’t always know What lies up ahead, Or which way I should go. I’d be more lost now If You had given me What I wished for then, You have set me free. Storm waves and winds blow,
But the Lifeguard’s aboard. Exhausted? Distracted? Rest in the Lord. Out in the sun,
I have 2 legs With which I can run. Numerous sights, And words to read, New knowledge and places Our eyes can lead. What I want to say, My mouth can express. Good, kindness, love, On hearts impress. My hands can paint, Or write on the page. Leisure or work, The world’s not a cage. To hear divine music, You gave me 2 ears. Listen and dance, Let go of fears. Free to move, I can explore. Nothing to prove To the One I adore. To share with the world, You gave us these things. Be lights unto others, With the joy that it brings. Don’t bury your talents That not all are given. Use what you have, Discover what’s hidden. Pure white wool
Against the grass Hides our sin, A brilliant pass. A white sheep Against the snow Looks white dirty, Sin’s that low. Dangerously deceptive, Our eyes cannot see What lies hidden To you and me. Relative, subjective, Is human perspective. While just and unchanging, God’s is objective. Have you been so blessed,
You’ve forgotten God? World got you stressed? Feel the discipline rod? Pride gets in the way, Of our desire to serve. It’s either God or for pay, Have I hit a nerve? Sure we need money, But do you need all that? You’ll leave it all behind! I smell a rat. They portray the rich As happy and glamorous, But their end is a ditch And divorce unamorous. Success isn’t measured By how much you make. Death crumbles riches, There’s nothing we’ll take. Adam, where are you? Where is your heart? Why have you forgotten Your great start? Nothing is resolved
Just chillin’ and fooling. Risk is involved In anything worth doing. Can’t do it alone, Holy Spirit help me. Help set the tone And see what You see. The accuser says I can’t, But You’ve crushed his head. Let him rave and rant, While we live on more than bread. Just wanted to seek The truth, but once found, Saw You call the weak To spread it around. Can’t keep it to myself, But I find it hard to speak. Don’t keep my faith on a shelf, But who listens to the meek? So I take to the pen, To write what I can’t say. Aiming at the hearts of men, That they may find Your way. Why do I do what I do not want,
And not do what I should? Paul struggled with this too, Not doing what we could. If I didn’t have to do that, I would have done this. Excuses can fool others, But there’s nothing God’ll miss. The things we should’ve done Pile up like dirty laundry. If we actually do something, It’s God that deserves the glory. We are unprofitable servants, Only doing as we should. Forgive us when we don’t Do all that we could. One day after church I was asked
A question that resonated with me. God speaks through people, really. It stuck, though I couldn’t yet see. “Did you enjoy it?” Did I what? That set me off thinking… Is there something to this That I could be missing? I went because you have to, To listen and learn, Keep straight your paths, Now how I yearn… I want to know You, I want to know more. My wonderful Savior, That touched my core. Never read my Bible, No desire before. I prayed and You gave, But You wanted more. So much time wasted, On things that don’t matter. Neglected the important, Replaced with the latter. What should’ve been first, I left for last. Thinking there’s time… Time and pleasure fade fast. Love God above all things, Was only fooling myself. I loved the world’s things, But they didn’t love back. Now You have my heart, Should’ve had it from the start. There’s no one greater, I love You Abba, Father. You’ve been calling, I always said not now. Maybe one day when I’m not busy? Besides, I don’t know how. It’s now, not later; Tomorrow may not come. Plan all you like. Around the corner Death waits, already taking some. You give me the words, And I’ll plant the seeds. It’s you who makes them grow, My only job is to sow. Who has ears to hear? Will anyone listen? The end approaches, He is near. Don’t let your heart harden. Here one moment, gone the next, You and I are wisps of air. The world grows darker, be the light! Tell of our hope and joy. Do you dare? Why does my heart beat so?
My voice and hands shake, The pit of my stomach closes in. What will it take? I must inhale deeply, Do it for your sake. If God is for us, Why do I fear? Human feelings, But God’s near. I say a prayer before, Jesus is the Key. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. The disciples were scared After Jesus left. But He told Them to pray and he’d send His Spirit, making them bold. Lord, I need your strength. Please send Your Spirit now. Show the world it’s not me, That I don’t know how. Make me smaller and You bigger, God’s wisdom is higher than ours. Get over who’s smarter, Pride comes before a fall. Put Your words in my mouth, Let me say them when needed. Before it’s too late, words we All should have heeded. How can I keep quiet, When lives are at stake? Choose life or choose death, Which path will you take? We all make mistakes, God waits with loving arms. But He is holy and when time’s up, There’s no more alarms. He doesn’t want robots. He gave Us free will. Have your cake, But is it really worth it? He died for YOUR sake. A car is well-built,
No one debates. Astounding details in all, But true reason man hates. How many infinite universes Do you believe in? Do you not see the design? Or do you just enjoy sin? Imagined missing links and abiogenesis, They can’t make a beneficial mutation, No species can change its kind, Yet they expect us to trust in evolution? Rain shows there’s clouds, Shadows caused by sunshine, Creation shows its Maker, Yet they still look for a sign… Do I have all the answers?
No, I do not. Do I love God? Yes, a lot. How do I know He exists? He’s been there all my life. Through good and bad, Especially through strife. My own experience Lets me know. Though I still needed Much to grow. Went to church, Grew up believing. Praying and thankful For what I’m receiving. Others have shared Their testimonies. Strangers to family, Nothing phony. Are there fakers? Sure, so be careful. Spirit reveals truth, So be prayerful. Did I sometimes have doubts? Yes, many of us do. I searched for answers, And think I’ve found what’s true. You’ll find what you look for In the Bible and with prayer. Thought that I knew, Till I read more Scripture. Perhaps a babe in Christ, Perhaps now a teen. No longer lukewarm, Know what I mean? A baby needs milk before you can wean Onto whole food knowledge and profit. Once they have learned, then you can glean Wonderful fruit from the fertilized seed. Believe in the gospel, I’ve seen it confirmed. Have doubts to dispel? Others have, go search. Seek and you will find, Knock and the door’ll open. Jesus isn’t dead, He is risen. I love discussions,
But maybe just me? If going in circles, Agree to disagree. I don’t see why Some can’t discuss Matters of faith Without yelling and fuss? You don’t have to agree, And neither do I. Swap our ideas, but You don’t have to buy. If we don’t discuss, How will we learn Others’ perspectives? Their friendship earn? Maybe you’ll hate me? I don’t hate any of you. Jesus said we’d be persecuted, Makes me sad but it’s true. Think the world isn’t fair?
Don’t blame God. He does care, While many men don’t. People suffer, many crying. Problems, wars, killing, starving, Don’t know Jesus and they’re dying. Who will help them? Or die trying? We are to blame, Our sin of selfishness. That we can’t seem to share Our blessings or happiness. If you have nothing, share a smile. If you do, just give. No demands, But from the heart with love, As we are God’s hands. We take nothing with us, Don’t build treasure here. Why do you want a mansion? When’s it enough dear? He sent His Son to save, Those that want and believe. His life to us He gave, Let’s use the chance wisely. Next New Year’s Eve, Don’t just make a resolution. Who keeps those? Start small. Become part of the solution. Why do I ask but not receive?
Do you ask wrongly? Is it a want or a need? Do you feel that strongly? Is it truly God’s will? Or not what He wants? Would He truly fulfill A wish just to please you? Only bits of the puzzle, We don’t see the whole picture. Perhaps there’s a purpose? Does it line up with Scripture? Seek God first, And blessings will follow. He wants our hearts, Not something shallow. Don’t name it and claim it, That’s a false doctrine. Would a Father give their child Something rotten? Be patient and ask all things, Your Father already knows. Good tidings He brings, Wants to prosper, not harm you. Sometimes the answer is yes, Sometimes no or not now. Maybe He’s got something better? Though you might not see how. Whatever the answer, We don’t always like it. With time, maybe after, We can appreciate it. So don’t stress or distress, If in a pickle or mess. Don’t press or obsess, Or second guess. Praise God in all circumstances, Not just when things go well. Why don’t you ask? Take a chance. If it’s no, then try not to dwell. There must be a reason, Though it doesn’t seem fair. For everything there is a season, A time to laugh, cry, dance, die… We don’t always understand, When some are taken from us, That they might’ve been spared Any worse evil that was to come. It rains on both the just and unjust, God can use bad for good, But sometimes we won’t find Satisfactory answers in this life. Sometimes we’re to blame, It’s not that God doesn’t care. We’ve got a responsibility People don’t want to share. Don’t seek happiness In passing things. Trust our Father to bless With what’s needed. At the seams
Falling apart, Nursing this Broken heart. Can’t take this Much longer, Getting weaker Not stronger. No one sees My tears. My cries No one hears. What’s been hidden, Starting to show. Night runs into day, More frequently low. All alone, In a crowd. Never said Out loud. Only One can take That hole we hide, Fill it with love, Make us whole inside. One moment of healing Was all it took. Couldn’t do it myself With advice or a book. Night turns to day, No more broken pieces. Come what may, Now I know I have Jesus. Too many paths,
Too many ways, But the price of sin, Only One pays. Existing law, Judges enforce. Murder, DUI, rape? Can’t bribe or coerce. Good deeds don’t erase The crime committed. Being sorry won’t fix The lives affected. It’s justice. Commit a crime, And when caught, You’ll do time. Nothing unclean Can enter heaven. A batch of dough Is ruined by leaven. Sin stains us all, Who can be saved? Trust in Jesus, Sentence is waived. Wages of sin is death, But in Jesus there’s life. Nobody can pay, Regardless of strife. Have you ever lied? Or perhaps stolen? Many sins we are guilty of, Are you truly that golden? We all have standards, Follow laws and morals. But why would God follow Rules made by mere mortals? They’re all so different From person to person. What’s normal to you, Others see as inversion. Travel to other countries, And you must conform. Follow their laws, And cultural norm. A crime in Egypt Is not tried in Timbuktu. There’s only One judge We must answer to. It’s God’s world, His rules. You can protest or fight, But that won’t change What’s wrong and right. I try to tell people
What He did for me, But they don’t get it And just stare blankly. “Sure, that worked for you. I’m sorry you had trouble. But I’ll keep going my way, While you read your Bible.” It’s not about that, A limiting set of rules. God loved me and us, Yet the world thinks us fools. If I love someone, But I smoke, I’d rather quit, Lest they choke. It hurts God When we sin. Why would I add Another pin? He cried and died, Don’t take that lightly. He set us free at a price, So choose rightly. What can I do Lord?
I’ve got the desire. Want to do what I used to admire. Never thought I’d Be one to share, But how can I not? So many unaware… How can I show them You care? How can I show You are there? To You faith is precious, Believe without seeing. Too many like Thomas, Seeing is believing. In part even I, Till I felt You. Changed forever, By love that is true. But what can I say To the deaf and blind? To ones that don’t seek And therefore don’t find? They don’t know You, And many don’t want to. Spurned and discarded, Almost crucified anew. Thunderous warnings, Rain drops like tears. Yet nobody fears As Your coming nears. Ants work too much, Grasshoppers play. Yet nobody hears What You have to say. Your mercy and compassion Are why You delay. Wishing all to be saved Before that final day. What’s unfamiliar, Easy to dismiss. Relativism say Not my business. You don’t have to listen, We are all free. But God loves you, It’s not about me. When man is blind, As I used to be, What can one do To make them see? God is love,
Jesus loves you. I know you don’t believe me, But it’s true. Never thought I’d be The one to say it. Can I really? Must I? The world’ll think I’ve lost it. It’s technically serious, But brings a smile to my face. You look at me and wonder, Is that really the case? What do you say after? Thank you? Okay? Uh… No thanks, see you later? What’s the point, who’ll believe? Someone said it to me once, But it was after I’d felt it. Undeserved, I said I know. Nice, but felt awkward a bit. I haven’t actually, until now. Written, but not out loud. But while He does love, You can’t sin and be proud. We’re all sinners, But repent and He forgives. Mature in Christ or beginners, Free gift for those that want it. He doesn’t want us to burn, He mourns for the lost. Rejoices when we repent, For your soul paid the cost. What would you do If someone said it to you? Unless you’ve felt it, How do you know it’s true? All I can say is what I feel, Just know that it’s real. Whatever your deal, Know He can heal. He loved me first, And now I love Him. If you feel at your worst, There’s hope for you yet. God is love, Jesus loves you. I know you don’t believe me, But it’s true. The clay has turned
To the potter and said, “You did not make me,” As if life came from dead. Computers and watches, Each have patentee. Want to see evidence? Creation is plenty. Too complex To emerge naturally. Coincidence? Accident? It’s logical fallacy. DNA and protein, Which evolved first? They need each other Or we die at worst. If one part is missing, It can’t function and dies. Survival of the fittest, But evolution is lies. Things break down, Decline, deteriorate. The law of entropy Has sealed our fate. We all get old, And we will all die. Science can’t make life, Though they can try. Think and research Before it’s too late And you meet your Maker, But are stopped at the gate. You speculate, From God emancipate. What Jesus did, Don’t appreciate. Once dead, You can’t negotiate. There is time, Don’t procrastinate. Our life is vapor, Seek now not later. We do have a Creator Whose way is greater. Lord, I am nothing
But your humble servant. Someone’s stumbling, I can’t seem to reach them. I can pray, But open their heart. Only then, Can healing start. If it’s not through me, Then some other way. May they seek and find You another day. |
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